Chaos.
Striving.
Rushing.
Busy-ness.
Did I do enough today?
Did I show up well enough for my people?
Am I enough?
For the love, can I just have some peace, please?
I’ve identified in the past with performance issues. I thought I had to earn my way to all the “enoughs”. If I work hard enough, then I’ll make enough money, and look successful enough to make me feel like enough. It was just a cycle that, well, was never enough.
The Ugly Truth
I remember many tears being shed because in my pursuit of achieving all the things I thought would bring me peace. I often felt like I was neglecting the most important people and things in my life. It was as if my validation was, if I just put this or that on the back burner, once I get to the place of “enough”, I can make up for it all.
Friends, it was pretty bad. I remember not even being able to watch a movie with my family without feeling like I was wasting time. It pains me even typing these words that were true thoughts of mine not too long ago. I felt like everything I did was a performance that needed to produce something, and anything less was just, well, lazy.
Over it…
I didn’t know how to just “be” in the moment. I would waste so many moments, sometimes not even acting on the next thing, but obsessing mentally over STARTING the next thing. Oh my word, I hope I am not tensing you up just reading this. I may have twitched a little myself, just now.
Several nights, I would lie in bed and just think, “I just want to be able to put my head on my pillow at night and know I’m good. I did enough. I am enough… I just want some peace.”
Do you ever experience these thoughts, too?
The past year I’ve experienced God shifting me from a state of performance to a state of peace and presence. I won’t lie and act like it was all easy. Shoot, it is hard teaching an old dog new tricks.
I can say, however, letting go and embracing this has been A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.
Am I a peace perfectionist? Absolutely not. Since I’m more at peace, I can be okay with not even trying to be perfect.
But I’ve come upon many tools and truths that have helped me stay rooted in peace. I’m learning how to be more present in my life and finding joy in it. My hope and prayer is that more and more woman would feel this way, too. So what do we do when we find something that helps us? Well, we share it, of course!
You’re invited….
I would love to share with you. Not from an expert position, but really to take a journey together. Life is so much better when we know we are never alone. Community is key.
Starting November 1st, I will be opening up a Facebook group, called #peaceplease. It will be a 60 day journey to peace. That’s right. We are not going to enter into this holiday season with a side of drama, anxiety, fear, or frustration making it’s way onto our plates.
This will be a group for women of all ages, backgrounds, and seasons of life. You can expect live teachings and truths being poured into you, as well as application tools to help you create more peace in your life.
Bonus…
We have what every woman loves – giveaways! Yes, I’m grateful to have beautiful friends and family with creative and entrepreneurial genes who have been so gracious to donate gifts for this community!
So, are you ready to lay down all the things that are life draining in turn for those that are life giving? I am, too. Let’s do so together.
Click this link to request to join the group and begin the journey: https://www.facebook.com/groups/miriamalbert
